SG responded to me. I had assumed that I just wouldn’t hear from him again, but I think he wants to be friends. He was very respectful and appreciated that I was honest with him. He actually said he hoped he hadn’t made me uncomfortable by asking me out! He really is a nice guy, I wish I was attracted to him.
I was in Costco today and I was fascinated by the other women there. I wondered about them… So many were very hastily thrown together, I wondered how I compared to these women. That sounds very shallow and judgemental, I don’t really mean it that way. It’s just that since entering my late-thirties I’ve become somewhat vain. Maybe vain is the wrong word; I’ve just become more conscious of my appearance and my age. I’m blessed with good genes, so I’m often told I don’t look my age. I never used to care, but now I do. I try to look put together whether I’m dressing for work or just a run to costco. So I couldn’t help but wonder if that shows or if I just look like a middle-aged mom. I think I fear being boring. Maybe this is the start of a mid-life crisis? I’m already fucking men other than Hubby, so I wonder how such a crisis would play out…
I also must admit, I was wondering about a lot of these people’s sex life. Were they fulfilled? How many of them were cheating or being cheated on? Did any of them have crazy sex lives with threesomes and partner swapping?
The Pilot used to love texting with me when I was in Costco. We would engage is some extremely dirty conversations while I was wandering the aisles picking up toilet paper and laundry detergent. He loved the idea of being able to make me wet while I was running errands!
I can also report that I am not pregnant. Just very late. Hubby was pleased to hear that, but I was a little disappointed. And now I’m starting to wonder if it is possible I’m going through early menopause…
In case anyone was curious the title is part of a quote attributed to Marilyn Monroe, “Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.” I’ve no idea when she said it, if she actually did say it, or even why I know it.