After my last post I was happy to have gotten my goodbye. I thought that things were done, but then he wrote again. And before I knew it we were talking again. Every day.
J saying that he missed me opened something up in me, let me feel more. But now I’m wondering if that’s a mistake, especially since the last week we’ve had virtually no contact. I know he’s busy, but I also know that if I mattered he would make an effort.
I don’t know where I stand. I’m angry, I’m hurt, but I’m also aware that he owes me nothing – no promises were made.
How did this get so complicated?
Why do I miss him more now than I ever did before?